I Need Therapy

Waking up here just to find you

Chasing the rays of sun from my bed

Watching the way the sheets fold around you

Like some kind of ghost that I havent met

Lacing my fingers over your knuckles

Trying just to make sure you're real

Because in a month or so when its over

I dont want to forget how you feel

Cuz I dont know or not if I need therapy

To keep the brain inside my head from infecting me

Shouting to fight or fly or just fucking die

I wake up everyday

Just trying to survive

And if I let you near

Will you still be here

Just to see

Six weeks and Im falling quickly

For more than just the curve of your smile

Colors are dripping down like mollases

Warmth that I havent known for a while

But there locked alone in my ribcage

Cracking from the heat we create

Sits back a creature that I keep there

A captive heart dormant from the ache

And im pretty sure that I need therapy

To keep the brain inside my head from infecting me

Shouting to fight or fly or just fucking die

I wake up every day

Just tring to get by

And if I let you near

Will you still be here

Just to see

Whats inside of me

Splashing out from each splintered crack

In the dam of the thoughts I drown in at night

Pouring the poison onto the fire

The same embers you helped to ignite

I found a way, a way like no other

To introduce you to all the pain

To the tune of the hunted beast

Or the will of some wounded prey

And was there ever any doubt that I need therapy

To keep the brain inside my head from infecting me

Shouting to fight or fly or just fucking die

I wake up everyday

Just trying to survive

And if I let you near

Will you still be here

Just to see

Whats inside of me

Or will you flee

.............

So baby lock me up and throw away the key

I cant ever find the will to stop me from being me

Im in a crisis

Cant you tell

im not even really here right now

And if I let you near

Will you still be here

Just to see

All that

I

can

be.