Forgiveness

I miss my heart

Or where it used to be

I miss it skipping with your laugh

I ran into you today but only brought

This

Cracked

Ribcage

With me

And inside were a thousand fresh

old wounds

And

My breath could melt plastic

With the heat I tried to spill

From out of our hell

The demons

Crawling out of my throat

Like lightning splitting time.

But it wasnt for you

it was someone better

A thousand times over

Even

On

The worst new day

So I smoked a pack and a half

Just trying to forget

How awful you could be

And the stains in my shoes

And worn out soul

From how many miles I walked for you

And the person I became

before

you took

A baseball bat

and broke my fucking ribs

to splinters

And just like

Every

Same

Exact

Story

Ive been telling this one too long.

But again today

I found a fucking way

A way like no other

To introduce

you

And the pain

And anguish

And burden

And wrath

riding shotgun

to the affair

You remember?

Locked back

In crisis

Where my heart used to sit.

Cattle prodded

Between the beats

To the tune

Of a hunted beast

And the will

Of some wounded prey

And just now I think

I finally learned

How you

Must

Have

Felt

With me.

the difference

Is I should know better.

But I dont.

Its not forgiveness

But its close